Life is, I think, the trace of facing something bad, good, wrong, or whatever in series or parallel day by day. Today, my fault made something spoiled in vain. I could expect difficulties in accomplishing it, however, never imagined the failure I faced in the morning. Pretending as if I were calm all through today, I revisited the point where critical fault in decision making happened one month ago. I came to admit my fault logically for sure. As clear as glass!

To be fair, I've got a message from a Japanese friend, saying that he was on business in Seoul, after a long interval since the last meeting a year ago. He is about to return back to Japan tomorrow. I just dropped reply with all my heart because I had an appointment tonight. Then, I've got a call from a friend, high school alumni, saying good news that he attained a supply contract with one of major information service providers in Korea. It was in six months that I received a call from him!

One bad thing and two pieces of good news balanced one another. This is life :)

Undergraduate school days (especially, for sophomore) were full of taking challenge and striving against it. Getting up early in the morning shaped daily lifestyle as a part of that challenge. I managed to make it a rule to start a day with fresh air. During the fall as well as winter season in Korea, early start is to break darkness at 6:00 or even at 7:00 sometimes. In other words, I faced dark mornings nearly one third days of a year! Since graduation, then, all through up to now, laziness could be overlooked with the excuse that I am a salary person competing intensively every day and night! I allotted free time slots only for sleeping. :) The photo below was taken near a depot when I waited for the first bus to catch up Japanese class scheduled to start from 6:45. I could feel the same that I had felt at that time! Can I return back to that time?

The artificial waterfall will shut down soon as winter approaches. It's time for me to close this year as it does. Recollecting what I have done this year, I can not pick anything best or impressive in performance and its meaning in my life. Nobody can be perfect. Nothing can fully satisfy human-being. However, I did not clearly and specifically establish yearly targets. That's why I can not properly weigh outcomes against them this moment. Of course, I have two and half more months to touch the end of this year. Hope may fill the room with fruits. I don't want to carry over scant outcomes to the next year!

Final decisions were made; "dinged" in perfect, April 5, 2007! It was long journey to prepare something by pouring utmost effort into it over the last one and half years. Perhaps, I might not do my best for it during that time. I now stand in front of another decision for new direction that I should figure out soon. What shall I do? I have many things to manage or to have managed well long before. They make me nearly crazy to switch task priorities in my life from long-term as well as short-term standpoint, to put additional targets and goals, and to re-prioritize their combinations with appropriate estimation. There is no absolute answer for life, of course. However, I am not always content with my own decision or results. As is the same case in my life so far, fresh start with newly planned targets may blow whatever makes me upset.